I need to sleep before I start thinking too much again..
What prevents me are my own inhibitions, my guilty conscious, and my inability to handle inevitable human nature, and the fact that I’m pretty much doing what I preach against..
I’m just a lot better at hiding it… which makes things even worse because I know what I’m doing but I choose not to do anything to stop, that’s usually the case with me.
Being an international student just got better, my grandma just transferred an insane amount of money into our bank account and she will be paying for college and because I’m considered an international student I don’t get financial aid, but I don’t know how that’s going to work because by the time I go to college I’ll be a permanent resident. Regardless, 4 years of college tuition was just put into the bank so either way, I’m set. Thank God.
And I say it’s nice to be an international student because as an international you have to send your financial and bank statements to ensure that you’ll be able to pay for college when you’re accepted and basically that means more money = better chance of getting in. Life is good, it’s always been good :)
